Thursday, July 4, 2019
The scary disease has ruined my life. Why not. My relationship with Yan (a pseudonym), I had to decide unilaterally, even though it felt very heavy. But this is for our common good. I don't want our courtship, which has been going on for almost five years, to be broken so painfully when I and he have to get married. Yan must have been disappointed and hated me when he discovered that my cyst had been eaten away by a cyst. He certainly blamed me for being dishonest.
Therefore, I slowly tried to stay away from him. For example, deciding to book our meeting. I always create various reasons, so he fails to meet me. But instead of being annoyed, he even loved me even more. Worse yet, he suddenly proposed an intention to marry me. It was impossible and made me feel so guilty.
In order to straighten my intentions away from him, finally, I let one of my coworkers work so we pretended to be dating. I just said my plan was to break up with Yan. Because I'm getting bored with him.
Luckily Samin (my friend's pseudonym), I want to obey my will. He who once expressed love to me, then I refused, certainly felt happy. He even joked to date us pretending, later it ended seriously. But I considered the joke as a breeze. The important thing is Yan can be angry, then move away from me.
Next, I began to reject Yan's invitation to spend the week together. Even when there was a marriage party, I immediately dismissed my reason for being busy. But actually, I still come there. Incidentally, his marriage party friend still has family relations with Samin. So, fit. My plan will run smoothly. The top of the beloved ulam arrived!
My wish came true. Yan and I did meet at the party. He who saw me scared because he was holding hands with Samin, became emotional. I could see sparks from his eyes. God, I'm very grateful. Hopefully, after seeing me having an affair, Yan will spit on me. Hopefully, he will break our love rope.
It turned out that after the incident that day, Yan no longer contacted me. My parents were surprised to see Yan never visiting home, immediately asking questions. I just lied to them, saying, "Maybe he's busy working. Or he's out of town."
Anyway, here I'm telling you that my parents didn't know that I had a uterine cyst almost two years ago. I did deliberately keep it a secret. I do not want them to be sad, then desperately trying to find alternative medicine so that my cyst does not enlarge, and my uterus must be removed. That still requires not a small amount of money.
Returning to my problem with Yan, it turns out it doesn't end sweetly. After almost half a month there was no news, he suddenly appeared at home carrying quite a lot of souvenirs. He said he had just returned from his grandmother's village. I asked, "Why are you still coming? Didn't you hurt to see me having an affair?"
He just laughed. He accused me of just playing with his love. Frankly, he said, that before returning to his grandmother's village, he first became a detective to extract the truth of my affair.
Who knew me so close. He wasn't sure if I could play fire with other men. He knows I'm the most loyal woman in the whole world.
This frightening disease has ruined my life. Why not. My relationship with Yan (a pseudonym), I had to decide unilaterally, even though it felt very heavy. But this is for our common good. I don't want our courtship, which has been going on for almost five years, to be broken so painfully when I and he have to get married. Yan must have been disappointed and hated me when he discovered that my cyst had been eaten away by a cyst. He certainly blamed me for being dishonest.
Therefore, I slowly tried to stay away from him. For example, deciding to book our meeting. I always create various reasons, so he fails to meet me. But instead of being annoyed, he even loved me even more. Worse yet, he suddenly proposed an intention to marry me. It was impossible and made me feel so guilty.
In order to straighten my intentions away from him, finally, I let one of my coworkers work so we pretended to be dating. I just said my plan was to break up with Yan. Because I'm getting bored with him.
Luckily Samin (my friend's pseudonym), I want to obey my will. He who once expressed love to me, then I refused, certainly felt happy. He even joked to date us pretending, later it ended seriously. But I considered the joke as a breeze. The important thing is Yan can be angry, then move away from me.
Next, I began to reject Yan's invitation to spend the week together. Even when there was a marriage party, I immediately dismissed my reason for being busy. But actually, I still come there. Incidentally, his marriage party friend still has family relations with Samin. So, fit. My plan will run smoothly. The top of the beloved ulam arrived!
My wish came true. Yan and I did meet at the party. He who saw me scared because he was holding hands with Samin, became emotional. I could see sparks from his eyes. God, I'm very grateful. Hopefully, after seeing me having an affair, Yan will spit on me. Hopefully, he will break our love rope.
It turned out that after the incident that day, Yan no longer contacted me. My parents were surprised to see Yan never visiting home, immediately asking questions. I just lied to them, saying, "Maybe he's busy working. Or he's out of town."
Anyway, here I'm telling you that my parents didn't know that I had a uterine cyst almost two years ago. I did deliberately keep it a secret. I do not want them to be sad, then desperately trying to find alternative medicine so that my cyst does not enlarge, and my uterus must be removed. That still requires not a small amount of money.
Returning to my problem with Yan, it turns out it doesn't end sweetly. After almost half a month there was no news, he suddenly appeared at home carrying quite a lot of souvenirs. He said he had just returned from his grandmother's village. I asked, "Why are you still coming? Didn't you hurt to see me having an affair?"
He just laughed. He accused me of just playing with his love. Frankly, he said, that before returning to his grandmother's village, he first became a detective to extract the truth of my affair.
Yan had known me so close. He wasn't sure if I could play fire with other men. He knows I'm the most loyal woman in the whole world.
I became uneasy. I wonder why he is so sure that I just want to play with his love. But before discussing the question, he first stated that Samin had trapped him with a reward so that he could tell the truth of our relationship. Apparently, Samin loves money more than me and that secret. He revealed that we were just pretending to be having an affair. I'm just trying to stay away from Yan because I'm getting bored.
Likewise, Yan was not one hundred percent sure. How could I be bored with him, after all this time he had become the most patient man in the world. He felt there was another reason, so I made a tantrum. He forced me to tell it. That's all for the sake of our relationship. He loves me very much. He really wants to marry me.
Honey, I still insist on staying silent. However, Yan was not a person who easily gave up. Today he wants to be patient for the violence of my heart. On another day he tried again to extract my secret with a tougher effort.
Finally, I can't stand it. In addition to feeling guilty seeing him harboring sacraments, I also didn't want him to despair. So I told him about the conditions that caused me to decide to part with him. I hope as a result of my frankness, his intention becomes strong to leave me. Try, which man wants to marry a woman who is with the womb. I'm definitely not satisfying lust. Moreover, they don't have the opportunity to give birth to normal children. Then, when the uterus must be removed, there is also hope for a cute little figure.
May Yan not leave me. He instead grabbed my shoulder, then stretched my head against his chest. He said I don't need to doubt his love. For him, the illness that I suffered was also his illness. Regarding lust, he was principled not to bother. Lust is indeed one of the main goals that make people married. But that does not mean "he" as a determinant of whether or not a pair of lovers knit a household.
Regarding our descendants later, it is left to God alone. He is the one who is able to give mercy. He also can pull it back. After all, according to Yan, my illness definitely has medicine. God cannot give a disease without an antidote. Like a snake not only has it, it also has its own antidote.
The strength of his heart later made me strong. Even two months later, when he proposed to me, I immediately agreed. I'm sure God will perpetuate our household.
Even if a bitter decision is received later, for example, my uterus is removed, it doesn't matter to me. Yan and I can still adopt children.
Luckily Yan did not want to carry on. He tried so that the illness that I suffered could heal. Then every time working vacation, he even engrossed in hunting alternative medicines to remote villages. Once in a while I managed to meet the goal, even though after I had carried out the ritual of using the drugs, my illness still gnawed. Until one day God finally gave way. By the intercession of a cleric who was still a relative of Yan, my illness gradually recovered. After almost half a year of treatment without breaking up, my magic disease disappeared completely. My doctor also wondered. According to him, the disease is very difficult and even impossible to cure until healed. But God has other wills to His servants.
Now it's been six years since my marriage with Yan. We have also been blessed with two adorable children. While the illness I suffered did not appear again. From the incident that happened to me can be learned the lesson that hopelessness will not solve the problem. Keep fighting, sooner or later will definitely meet the goal. All that God gives always has a partner. There is a disease, there is also a cure. There are men, there are also women. God will not give a burden if His servants cannot bear it.
Author: Rifan Nazhip